inhale love, exhale hate
crmlancky
"When you're struggling with something, look at all the people around you.
Every single person you see is struggling with something,
and to them, it's just as hard as what you're going through."
- Nicolas Sparks
Even the best fall down sometimes, even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind, I somehow find you and I collide
Saturday, January 29, 2011 @ 11:36 PM

So, I decided to start blogspotting again cause I actually missed it LOL. The only reason why I stopped was cause I was venting to a computer screen and a keyboard, but then I thought about it today, and venting out on this shit actually made me more calm. SO WHY NOT RIGHT!? But anyways, the last time I posted was March 6th, 2010... Holy shit, now that I'm looking back @ it, a lot of stuff happened:
1. Me & Michael broke up. We were together for about a year & 2 months? Something like that. It was my longest relationship that's for sure, but it wasn't always the happiest. Yeah to those people who didn't know what really went on, we always looked so "happy." But trust me, there were things we both shouldn't have done, or shouldn't have said. We were far from happy, especially during the summer. One thing lead to another, fight after fight, it even got to the point where we were fighting every single day. I was suprised myself that I would even stay in a relationship like that. But then the day came where I finally realized that it just wasn't right anymore. But on a happier note, we worked things out I guess, and now we're friends, so that's good :)
2. I turned 15, woo! I can't even remember what I did for my birthday though... wtf. LOL um, let me think. Wow, I actually really don't remember what I did. THAT'S SO SAD LMFAO. I'm looking forward to my 16th birthday though!
3. I got my beautiful blackberry curve from my mommy for being on honour roll (A) oh & I won the highest mark in freaking gym. LAME LOLOLOL. What am I gonna become in the future? A damn fitness trainer? I can't even go up the stairs at my school without being winded. FML.
4. I became best friends with mister sergiu pilca :D We started talking in the summer cause we were in the same class for summer school, and we sat beside eachother with kristin. & one day Michael was mad @ me, and I guess him & Kristin noticed I was kinda down so they asked me what was wrong and then from there me & him just got closer. It's pretty cool cause me & him got closer than I did with some friends that I've known for more than 5 years. This kid just understands me so well. UFNUAGADJG, it's pretty crazy cause sometimes he even knows what I'm thinking D: But anyways, today he left for Florida and I won't be able to talk to him for 9 days :( EFF DAT SHIT. But yeah I miss him so much already.
5. I GOT MY POOL. WOO. It was fun for like the first month but then it became a bitch cause like all the maintenance and shit. I never knew how hard it was to keep a damn pool clean. Ew & I remember there was this water bug living in it and it made babies so there was like all these bugs actually swimming. They probably swim better than me... LOLOL.
6. I finished my semester 1 exams for grade 10 :D It was pretty easy, but then I think about it & damn I'm getting old. TWO MORE YEARS OF HIGHSCHOOL AND I'M OUTTA HERE. I just don't know if I should be happy or scared. But yeah, my next semester is going to be so easy. I CUNT WAIT.
7. More stuff happened...It's just not coming to me right now LOL DON'T THINK I'VE ONLY HAD 6 MAJOR EVENTS HAPPEN TO ME WITHIN 10 MONTHS OKAY.

OKAY SO NOW, yesterday was omg. Some people came over to "my live jam on the west side." LOLOL. But yeah, people came over & we drank and danced and did all the badass highschoolers do in the movies. But I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to have another jam during the march break 0o0o0o0o0o.
& TODAY WAS THE LAST 8 HOUR SHIFT I HAD TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Honestly I'm so happy to live that shithole, holy crap bunch of two-faced bitchy ass co-workers LOL. But whatever, I met a lot of nice people to balance it out :)

okok so now I think I'm gonna go on tumblr for a bit then get some zzz. Ugh I miss talking to my best friend. COME BACK ALREADY :'(